Friday, March 8, 2013

I Fell In love for the 3rd Time

Friday morning I awoke with the fear of how could I ever love my baby girl who I would meet that day as much as I love my daughter who is 4. Let me tell you the minute I heard her first cry I knew I fell in love for the 3rd time my life, 1st time with my husband , 2nd time when my daughter was born and yet again on March 1st at 1:42 pm when I gave birth  to my 2nd baby girl. 

I must say it was very strange checking in to Maternity without being in labor, I changed into a gown and my baby was kicking away in my belly. My family came to see me with great anticipation that we were just an hour away to adding another addition to my family. Time had come and the nurse said it was time to go to the OR. I laid down and she nope get up, get up I asked why, because we are walking you into the OR. Yep, I walked myself into the OR. My husband and I hand in hand, dressed in scrubs. It was very difficult seeing all the instruments laid out. I mean I felt great no pain and within minutes I was being prepped for surgery to have a baby. Another baby, another person in my home, another baby to love forever. It was so surreal!

Once I heard her cry my fear of not being able to love her as much went away. I fell in love with her and have been memorized by her ever since. I feel like my family is now complete and will cherish this baby forever!