I listen to music as I work. This song came on and it felt like someone punched me in my gut. I was going to change it but decided not to.
Healing is about feeling. Unburying it all. You can’t hide from pain. You have to face it.
In 2019 I went through something that broke me. It takes a lot to break me but this situation broke me. My own divorce didn’t even affect me like this did. That’s why I write. If everything was perfect you would have nothing to write. If I write a lot I am overwhelmed if I go silent I am at peace.
Alanis Morissette best work came after a heartbreak.
So I listened to the song and I smiled at the end. Because that gut pain didn’t last. That gut pain reminded me I had to go through that to learn to never be in that position again.
Journeys happen so we can reach a destination where we don’t let the same things bother us or hurt us. I have done years of work to be at peace. My journey today is different than in 2019. I don’t even recognize myself back then.
You owe yourself the same thing. When something triggers you face it. When you feel pain unbury it. Listen to the song. Write. Cry. I don’t care how you do it. Just do it!