Wednesday, April 1, 2020

When Was The Last Time You Showed Someone How You Really Felt?



It’s not an easy time to express how we feel. We are so wrapped into the news and chaos and sadness. I am not like that. I can’t be down. I have to spread good and happiness. 

The other day I stopped by a friends and left them a slice of my pie on their porch. 

She was so happy I thought of her. She texted me saying I made her day. 

I haven’t been around my sisters in a while. One was feeling a bit down so I said I was coming by. 6 feet was plenty of space for us to still enjoy eachother. I saw her transform after I left. She was happy even if we couldn’t hug goodbye. 

Today was someone who is really special to me Birthday. I couldn’t be with him to celebrate so instead I surprised him and had lunch sent to him. I can’t get over how appreciative he was. I wanted to be sure he felt special even if I couldn’t be with him in person. 

I don’t want my parents going to the grocery store. I go instead. I woke up really early and went before everyone started their day. I stocked up on fresh produce. It should hold us over for a week or two. They were beyond appreciative. 




I am so grateful for these people and everyone else who everyday are amazing to me and for me. Who check in on me to make sure we are all ok. These are just brief stories of how I can make people feel as important and special as they make me feel. 


There are little steps we can take. It doesn’t cost much or anything. It’s not hard to show people how much they mean to you. It makes your heart full and good. Do it. Tell someone how special they are. Do something nice for someone. I swear it helps your heart and soul. 

Get Up & Get Moving


It’s not easy meeting the 10k step goal without being able to go to the gym. The other day I woke up. Got dressed. Went to turn on my car to go for a walk. We are a creature of habits. I laughed and then wanted to cry. Our habits have to change. No gym for a while. So on nice days I push the kids for us to be outside. My favorite activity besides long walks is basketball. Always helps me reach my target step count. 

I am not a runner. I was years ago not anymore. So don’t worry. Just do whatever works for you. Just get outside and distract yourself. Stay in shape. Stay healthy. 

Notice Your Triggers


This is important. I have said it before. We all should live in peace. Calmness. When we are reactive it’s an internal wound that isn’t healed. Sometimes it has nothing to do with the person who is causing us to react. Imagine that?

When you are aware of your wounds and insecurities you can have successful relationships and friendships. You won’t project on to people. 

We can all live in peace once you do the hard work of really healing. 

Happy 7th Year To Me



Today marks my 7th year being Thyroid Cancer Free. Wow lucky 7. It was like yesterday I was this young pregnant woman going into surgery. Leaving behind a 4 week old and 5 year old girl. I remember that day like it was yesterday. It never really bothered me. Memories looking back. But I found this post and when I reread it I actually cried. Because if I could go back I would have hugged that young girl and told her it will be hard and painful but ok. That you would face a lot of tough roads ahead of you but come out to be strong and survive. 

That the RAI treatment will be awful. That you will be in quarantine for two weeks and can’t be with your family. That certain foods years later still remind you of your cancer treatment and give you a wave of nausea. That the scans will be awful because you will not have any medicine in your body and you literally will feel your body decay. I would tell her that she didn’t have to be strong. That being strong meant years of still having pain from never really dealing with it. That being strong for everyone else took away your healing emotionally. That the person you needed most at the time would not be able to mentally or emotionally handle you needing help so you would put  up a wall that would take years to come down. 

I survived cancer. I survived a divorce. I survived heart ache and pain. I survived not knowing where I was going or doing. I survived in a world where you are judged. I survived so I could give my girls a calm, peaceful life. 

Cheers to all of you who have survived your own battles. I am proud of you!

My past post: 1 Week To Go Before My Thyroid Cancer Surgery