Monday, December 30, 2019
It’s These Moments...
Parenting...over break...I must admit it’s been the easiest this year. They are older and it’s easier but funny how I say I am tired and need a little break. But then this happens.
I go in my phone and see my youngest has taken a ton of selfies. She cracks me up.
Then my middle one falls asleep early on the couch. As I am carrying her to her room she sort of wakes up. I say it’s ok mommy is here. She says I love you. I reply I love you too. She then says over and over I love you more than anyone in the world Mommy. I really do. I say I know you do. Sleep well. I love you too.
My oldest says she loves me more and more. All the time. When I say I love you too more and more she says no way. I love you more.
And it’s true. They do. I know they do. They love me more than anyone in the world. Just like you did too as a kid. Just like your kids do to you.
And there’s moments when it’s tough and tiring. Then there’s moments that they melt your heart and love you more than anyone does. They love you even when you look like a hot mess. They love you because you make them feel safe and loved and taken care of. And all along you love people who do the same for you. Who make you feel loved and taken care of. It’s a cycle. We all want to be taken care or and cuddled and validated and loved. We all want people who make us feel safe and good. 💗
Life...It Changes
You have to break the cycle to get different results. You have to realize if you keep doing the same thing you get the same results. Be adventurous. Embrace life. Know people come and go. Know that every situation helps you grow.
Purge All That and Start Again
I woke up a little sad. Not sure why. Maybe from being overtired. I started to think about this past year. Past disagreements replayed in my head. I had to learn to let it go. Accept the outcomes and know that what’s meant for me will be. I always felt things would end differently this year and realization is sometimes things don’t play out the way we thought. It’s our job to feel. Accept. Start again.
I always believe in signs and numbers are huge for me. Looking at numbers and seeing correlations to them. Following my intuition. When your brain is clogged with fog it’s hard to think clearly. Today’s one of this days. I will need to spend extra time reflecting. Accepting. Working on person affirmations. Not everyday has to be sunshine. It’s ok to be down. But work through it and know that doesn’t last.
Sunday, December 29, 2019
Noon O’Clock New Years Eve
It’s hard to celebrate with little ones. I love this idea. Celebrating at noon instead of midnight.
Stepping Stones and Maritime Center both have some great activities on December 31st to bring in the New Year at Noon.
Check it out:
When Feelings Do Not Align
But they didn’t feel for you what you felt for them...
It really is something to think about and makes total sense.
Divorce. Breakup. Splits. Lack of call backs. Think about your life. You fight with your significant other because you want them to feel for you what you feel for them.
When feelings do not align it stirs up a ton of emotions. I want you to sit back and think. The person you care about or love how do they bother you? What’s the number one thing they do to upset you.
Think about past relationships. Why did they end? How did they make you feel about that person?
The person who doesn’t feel same way wants to remain friends because they don’t have bad feelings towards them. They just stopping loving them or liking them in a way that would want them to continue the relationship. To have a future or bring it to the next level.
When you look within you find the answers. It’s ok to be upset and feel rejected BUT do know it’s ok for them not to feel for you what you felt for them and vice verse.
Our Journeys Are Not The Same
It’s ok...no two journeys are alike BUT the point is to help one another on our journeys. We encourage eachother. Be there for one another. Help one another. Love one another. Even if we don’t end up together. Even if things aren’t aligned. We are all meant to help eachother along the way. Family. Friends. Lovers. Whatever.
May you love and respect those on your journey with you. May you help people with their journey too.
Be Happy Solo
Enjoy yourself. This year I took myself out alone a lot. Dinner. Movies. Lunch. Even sat at a bar and watched a game alone. I traveled alone. Took myself to Downtown Disneyland alone.
Must admit was pretty fun!
I was even tempted to hope on a train and go to NYC alone.
It’s ok to be alone. We’re never fully alone. Thankfully. So when we do want to do something for ourselves it’s ok to do it.
Mill Park Winter Beer Garden Stamford
I have been wanting to come here since I read about it in November. I finally got to go on the last Saturday it was open for the season. It’s so cool. Right outside is an ice rink. Inside is a huge tent. They serve beer or wine.
A ton of tables and chairs and fun couches and chairs and benches. It’s so festive and super clean. Warm
Too.
It was my cousins last night here so was perfect opportunity to take them out. I tried the peach beer was delicious. Great price too.
So glad we got to experience it. Was a great wrap up to the holiday season. I hope your holidays were magical and filled your heart and soul too with happiness.
Skrewball Peanut Butter Whiskey
I don’t drink much but when I do I am selective with what I drink. I love a good Old Fashioned or flavored liquor. We stopped in Cask Republic last night in Stamford and saw this after dinner drink on the menu. Screwball Peanut butter Whiskey. All I have to say is we woke up googling where to buy a bottle. We had it on the rocks. It smelled like chopped peanut nuts. Delicious. Not strong. The perfect drink to hang and chat while sipping on.
The funny thing is a friend bought us a nip in Colorado and I didn’t realize it was the same brand. I definitely loved having it in a large bottle. It got to breathe better.
Saturday, December 28, 2019
There’s Always A Reason
Do you regret meeting me? A friend asked me that. I didn’t know how to respond to him. I swear I almost said yes. Because it caused some unnecessary situations and it wasn’t all great all the time and it hurt much longer then it felt good. It caused me to have some self doubt and I don’t like feeling insecure. BUT I didn’t. I didn’t say yes because truth is we all meet people for a reason.
It’s a part of our path and journey. I don’t regret my ex husband because I had three kids with him and at the time he was what I needed. Do I feel I deserve a better situation...absolutely. We all do but have I found anyone yet that can give me that..not at all.
We change people’s life’s all the time. We also have people come into ours to change ours.
I definitely feel I have connected within. I found my path more. I have learned what triggers me. I learned about my insecurities. I had some awesome adventures and experiences.
I met a friend a year and a half again. I swear I am
always thanking this person for making me feel absolutely amazing always. Like I am just the best thing ever. That’s what he does for me. He provides me a boost of esteem every time I am around him. No drama. No arguments. Just good conversations and easy fun. We both help eachother feel our best.
Crazy how people in your life play different roles. But you need them to. You need different perspectives so you can grow and change as a person.
I think this is true for a lot in our life. A lot of people in my life play different roles. Appreciate them for it. Whether the ones who make you feel amazing or the ones who give you self doubt.
These Two Types Of Pains
The pain that changes you teaches you a lot. It teaches you what you will accept and won’t. It teaches you about love and life and people.
I hope the pain that happened this year made you stronger and didn’t make you bitter. I hope you still believe in love and good in people and fairy tales. I hope you still have your happily ever after long after the emotions hit you.
Pain changed me. It made me look within and seek truth. It really helped me even on my dark painful days. I hope your pain helped you too.
I hope next person you love loves you too and the pain anyone once gave you will make sense.
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