My Life

I am at this stage in my life that I need to stop doing what other's want me to do. I need to regain a little contol over my life and do what makes me happy. Most of my friends are not married and do not have a family so it is hard for them to imagine that staying home or having a quiet dinner would make them happy. I am kindof over the party scene, the night life, the $300 dinners and bar tabs. I am happy working part time and gaining a paycheck big enough to feel I am contributing to my household, grabbing a pizza for dinner and spending time with my husband and child on the weekends.

I am over the material things, fancy cars and name brand clothes. I feel at this point in my life I have all I want, all I need, anything extra is not neccessary. It's hard to be the one in the group to feel these way because you may come across cheap or insensitive. And it's not that, it's that a lot of the time we do these things to fill a void we have and right now I don't have that void. If I could stay this way forever I would be happy. I love my house, my daughter, my husband. I am not giving up or saying an occasional treat is not nice, but I feel like I am always on the go, always trying to please someone, always dishing our money and not really enjoying myself.

I can not image that everyone could understand where I am coming from, but I can assume I am not alone. I am a wife, a mom, a worker, I have responsibilties and staying out until 2:00 am to wake up the next day and perform my responsibilites are not feasable anymore. I just can't do it and I feel it should be ok to not want to do it. I am putting a stop to what other's want from me and doing what I want. I apologize if anything gets offended but at the end of the day it is me who needs to be happy, as for yourself to all of those who do what I do.

Do what makes you happy in life because in the end that is what really matters!