Are you running from your reality? Distractions. Detours. We all do it. I had a touchy conversation with someone the other and I had to go for a walk. I had to stop working. Blast my music and walk.
It cleared my head. My emotions. It was the best thing. It distracted me and then it hit me...
My dialogue with this person may never change. It’s been the same for years. I just always had a distraction. Now I didn’t. I didn’t have anyone there to say how was my day and distract me from the chaos in my head caused by someone else.
I had to face my reality. On my own. Yes I have family and friends but it wasn’t the same. I had to ask my self why am I so mad. It was because I was facing it. No escapes. No nothing. Me alone saying ok what will you do to no longer let this person affect you.
No one understands loneliness until they are really alone. There’s steps to it. Sadness but then strengthen. Also a little bad because you then don’t want to ever depend on anyone or give your heart again in fear of being hurt or alone again. Yet once you face your realities you begin to heal.
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