Sunday, March 31, 2013
Grateful For The Support I Have
"In this journey called life it's a blessing to know that any battle we may face we do not need to face them alone."
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Life Quote
"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving." Albert Einstein
Friday, March 29, 2013
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Be Strong Quote
"Streghten isn't something anyone can give you, it's something you must teach yourself to protect yourself!"
Monday, March 25, 2013
1 Week to Go...Thyroid Cancer Surgery
Last week I had the pleasure of going to Yale for my pre op appointment and I actually felt really good after my appointment I walked in being nervous and walked out feeling like I am so ready to get this cancer out of my body.
I am not going to lie I hate I am going through this. And it isn't so much the Cancer because for someone who just had a baby I feel great besides minor body aches and lack of rest, what bothers is that I just don't want to deal with this. I don't want to deal with all the doctor appointments and not being with my girls. I dislike having to have another surgery and being away from home.
I keep thinking maybe my pathology will come back negative for cancer even though my two biopics both came back positive for Papillary Carcinoma. See no one wants cancer even the word is horrific so even though this is the "best" type of cancer to have I just don't want any type in my body.
I was in great shape before I got pregnant and now I have no idea what my body will be like after my thyroid is out. But am lucky to have a trainer in my family who offered to help me get back to where I want to be once surgery and treatments are over.
I know being optimistic is the way to go and trust me for the most part I have been really positive. So with a week to go I am trying to be positive. My incision should only be 2 inches, I joined a support group online and they have provided awesome tips, ex practice turning with your torso not neck since after surgery you shouldn't turn your neck, eat Popsicles for a sore throat which isn't from the removal of thyroid but from having a breathing tube in during surgery. Prepare to eat sort foods. I again am so grateful for all the support and help I have lined up to help me and my children.
I can't wait to put this past me and know if I can get through this and be strong then I can handle anything!
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Grateful in Many Ways
My cancer has affected a lot of people and I know it. I like to think I am an overall happy person. I try to look at life straight on, I used to be more of a dreamer a free soul. I am trying to bring myself back to that point, the point where laughter heals the soul, where fear isn't something I let consume me. It's harder then you think.
One way God has blessed me is he's filled my life with a lot of amazing people, good people, the ones who truly love me. Since I had my baby my house has been filled with food, gifts, people wanting to help me, and love. Real love, real happiness. I am so grateful. After my surgery I have another group lined up yet again to help me and I am so grateful in so many ways.
We all go through life with judging our happiness based on materialistic things but true happiness, real good people and real love can't be bought! I am grateful in many ways for all I am blessed with and when I am down I have so many people and reasons to pick myself back up!
Secret to Happiness
Monday, March 11, 2013
Don't Let It Get the Best Of You
I have this amazing baby is my arms and all I keep thinking about is how could I have cancer in my body, how could this baby have been in my belly while I had cancer? It's crazy I know and as much as I try not to think about it I see my preop appointment on my calendar and My surgery date haunting me. I keep thinking this too will past but I have to admit its really taking a toll on me. I am slowly recovery from my csection and hate to have another surgery. I am trying not to let this get the best of me but the only way to deal is to feel!
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Let Go to Gain More Quote
"If you let go of what's holding you back you will allow something bigger and better in."
My Girls My Life
Friday, March 8, 2013
I Fell In love for the 3rd Time
Friday morning I awoke with the fear of how could I ever love my baby girl who I would meet that day as much as I love my daughter who is 4. Let me tell you the minute I heard her first cry I knew I fell in love for the 3rd time my life, 1st time with my husband , 2nd time when my daughter was born and yet again on March 1st at 1:42 pm when I gave birth to my 2nd baby girl.
I must say it was very strange checking in to Maternity without being in labor, I changed into a gown and my baby was kicking away in my belly. My family came to see me with great anticipation that we were just an hour away to adding another addition to my family. Time had come and the nurse said it was time to go to the OR. I laid down and she nope get up, get up I asked why, because we are walking you into the OR. Yep, I walked myself into the OR. My husband and I hand in hand, dressed in scrubs. It was very difficult seeing all the instruments laid out. I mean I felt great no pain and within minutes I was being prepped for surgery to have a baby. Another baby, another person in my home, another baby to love forever. It was so surreal!
Once I heard her cry my fear of not being able to love her as much went away. I fell in love with her and have been memorized by her ever since. I feel like my family is now complete and will cherish this baby forever!
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