We don’t. We never know. We can guess. We can assume. But look back on your life. Did you ever picture it to be the way it is now.
What regrets do you have? What would you do differently? Whatever those are fix them. You have time to be whatever you need. To love whomever you want to love, to heal from any pain you may have felt.
I hear this word a lot. It’s something we have to learn to work on. Projecting our pain or fear or anger on to someone else is not ok.
It’s not fair but it happens. We make mistakes and guess what it’s ok. Apologize and learn from it but don’t repeat it. Don’t repeat mistakes. Love and be happy.
I have a couple of people in my life where anger is projected on to them from their significant others and it’s awful. I remember feeling like that and even though they apologize the scars are still there.
We need to learn to not use force or be angry. We need to learn to talk about what we are feeling. Peacefully
We need love and affection and personal touch. We yearn for the desire to feel wanted and needed. Loving the wrong person proves you have so much to give to the right one. It doesn’t mean you give up on love. It means you believe that love is out there and the right one hasn’t found you yet.
I am grateful for all the amazing people in my life. I had a heart to heart conversation with a friend tonight. It’s great to have someone who gets you and enjoys you. I always tell people in my life I appreciate them because I do. We are all loved and cared for...be sure to share it.
Everyone you meet or met, everyone you love or loved, still has a piece of you in them and they have a piece of them in you. Even long after it’s over. Long after the lesson has been taught.
How amazing to know you can love and be loved. That you can be valued and of value. You aren’t forgotten and neither are they. So many time life steers you in different direction but to know that they have left a mark in you and you left a mark in them.
I can explain my triggers. Down to the core. But those triggers will repeat until I fully heal. A lot of times we bury it. We don’t want to deal. At the surface we act fine. We don’t let that buried pain affect us. But then something happens. A word. A song. A memory. Is all it takes for the pain to resurface. When it resurfaces it can be ugly. At the moment you don’t know why you’re angry or sad but as it’s happening the brain is trying to understand the heart and the emotions.
I am not perfect. I have healings to still do. I have acted like some situations were fine and I was over them but then a word or song or memory reminded me I wasn’t. That I still had pain from situations that I had buried.
No one gets it what you’re feeling at that moment because they aren’t in your head or body. So when you are triggered have a safe word before reacting. Before saying something you don’t mean. Before taking actions. Try to take a break. Regroup. Refocus.
It’s ok to not be perfect. It’s ok to show your weak side. It’s ok to go in a room alone and cry or yell. What’s not ok is to take it out on someone. Forgive yourself. Forgive the people who brought you pain. Release and focus on healing.
I love Fall! I love the leaves changing. Going for walks. Being able to wear a light sweater with capris and flip flops. I think we all need to breathe in and out. Take a time out and do something nice for yourself.
I so was this mom. I would talk to each kid and have them decide which costume they wanted and then they changed their mind up until the day of Halloween. What can I say. We all like to be prepared.
Sometimes our heart and brain are not connected. As if they conflict. But your soul should lead you to where you should be. It’s our intuition, our true self.
It’s is also important to surround yourself with people who’s souls flow with yours. Where you can be you and happy and carefree.
Think of the people you know. When they walk in a room what do you feel inside. The good vibe people you can’t get enough of. The not so good vibes you’re on guard. Protect yourself. Our careful when you speak. Surround yourself more with people who are aligned with you.
Grateful for my three beauties. They really are the best versions of me and their father. They are all so different and unique in their own way. They made me a Mom. Best job I will ever have. As they get older it’s nice to see them change. To see them grow into an individual person. With hobbies and their personalities crack me up. I hope they appreciate all my hard work and efforts. It’s not easy but worth every moment.
I listen to music all day while working. Hasn’t been the best day for me and then this song comes on. I mean who can be upset while Journey is playing. All I can picture is every time this song came on and we partied or did karaoke. A flash flood of memories came out and all I could do was smile.
You have to understand life. It’s so fked up at times. It’s hard and good. People won’t always understand you or be able to give you what you need. Your emotions can get the best of you. Sometimes you don’t get closure. We chase a clock and all these responsibilities but end of day it’s how you love and live and make your heart happy.
There’s a sense of confusion at times. When two people are not on the same page. When someone gives a little more and the other takes a little more. It’s normal in every situation. Where you have to face realities verse fantasy. Where you must understand no one can make you happy. They are just an addition in your life. You can be happy with life and miss someone or hurt for someone and that’s ok. Doesn’t mean you’re not happy but I will give you one advice to never settle. Never settle ever. You are entitled to have someone make you feel like you’re amazing and the only person in the world and you too need to reciprocate to that person. If you don’t or they don’t stop wasting your energy on them.
I woke up sad. Does that ever happen to you? When you heart hurts a little and you are like not today. I don’t want to feel this way today. Then somehow your mood shifts. You realize you have the power to control your thoughts. How you react.
You shift gears. You love yourself so much that you won’t allow any pain to affect you because it won’t make a difference if you do. People will still go on with their life. You still have responsibilities to face. You have to know that you can’t force things. You only have control over you.
So I sent a girlfriend a really cool event for us to go to Friday. I asked my mom to go for a walk. I shifted gears. Because at the end of the day who is going to take care of you? You are. So love yourself. Be happy. So what your heart hurts. Let it be. Still enjoy the things in life you can control. Which is your mind and emotions and how you react.
A friend said I was an open book. I said yeah try me. He went on to say how I just want a simple, good, gentle relationship.
Yep!
I went for a walk and told my mom and she said wow he is spot on. Why can’t I have that with my friend because well life isn’t meant to be that way. Life is about experiencing everything first before finding something that simple. Maybe I am not ready for it. Maybe I had it already with someone I lost it even though it was short lived.
All I know is we should be a priority. Someone should make us a priority and we make them ours too. We want to come first or close to first as possible. Kids always take center stage I agree. But we want someone’s heart to hurt and yearn for ours.
Every time I hear this song it hits something in me like I am sure it hits you all too.
Aim to live a simple, happy, gentle, good life. Aim to be with someone who loves you as much as you love them.
A break. From life or whatever or a need to get out and be around people. Whatever it is. Enjoy the breaks. Take the breaks and do whatever is needed to replenish your soul.
I love this vineyard. I went in March for a friend’s birthday. Was so much fun. They are open year round. Was a lot of fun then. Can only imagine how pretty it is in the Fall now.
