This is exactly how I feel. My Meds are still not right so my body is living off a combination of synthroid and cytomel. I love my cytomel. Oh my its like the perfect meds to help me feel somewhat myself again. However,unfortuanelty my doctor is weaning me off of it, she doesn't recommend it be used for people who had thryoid cancer and she believes once I get the right dose of synthroid I will feel normal again.
"NORMAL" is the key word in my life. Not exaxtly sure what that means but not forgetting things, living without hot flashes and not having horrible dry skin sounds great to me and having a metabolism that actually works is the type of "normal" I need in my life again. I have a good 25lbs to lose to get back to my pre pregnancy weight but without the right amount of thyroid Meds my weight will no budge. I am losing about a half a pound a week if that, since my radioactive iodine treatment but at that rate I will be lugging around this extra weight for another year and well I rather not.
I must say I turn to food for comfort and I am soooo tired that I haven't been to the gym in months. I need more motivation. Being a mother of 2 definitely has put a toll on me. Along with dealing with the thyroid cancer which I will like to now believe I am a survivor. I am waiting for a blood test to confirm next month.
I should have a shirt made that says "oh no I am not fat. I just had a baby and thyroid cancer" Not sure though how people won't look at me like I am crazy! But then again aren't we all a little crazy anyway!
So I will find out in 6 weeks if "normal" is in my near future if not she will up my meds. In the meantime I will try to sneak in a nap as much as I can.
Afterall, naps aren't just for kids anymore!
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