Sometimes You Just Need A Break & That's Ok

A couple weeks ago I couldn't get out of bed, no matter how many times I tried I couldn't. All I wanted to do was sleep. It was so not like me. I am full of energy. I schedule plans all the time. I like to keep busy, try new places, work. I run on 5-6 hours of sleep and usually when I feel run down self medicate and take Tylenol and I bounce back. Not that day. I wasn't bouncing back and it was a little scary. 

My mom even called and asked why I wasn't responding to texts. I am sleeping. Oh no what's wrong she asked. I didn't even know!

It was like I could relate to when they say someone was depressed and just can't get out of bed. Now the week prior I threw my daughter a party, had a lot of major projects at work to complete and attended a couple meetings for school and a board I am on. So yes it was a busy week but I crashed. I mean hard. I stayed in bed until 9:00 am then crashed on my couch. What's wrong with you my husband asked nothing I snapped I just want to sleep, I need a break. So I finally got up cleaned up breakfast gave my little ones a bath then crashed again. I got up paid my taxes and my husband said take the afternoon off and do what you want. I just want to sleep I said and that's exactly what I did.

 I took a four hour nap. I just didn't want to face the day or anything else. My body kept saying "nope" whenever I got up. It was pretty awful. Luckily my mother in law kept the little ones for the night and after I woke up I watched a movie with my oldest daughter then slept another seven hours through the night. I woke up and felt guilty. Like wow I wasted my weekend in bed but it wasn't a waste. See we need a time out. Pushing ourselves always isn't a good thing. It kindof scared me to think that I could have just kept sleeping. I didn't even care to eat. I just wanted to escape the world and sleep. Of course I woke up feeling good but there are still days I wake up and day "not today" and don't want to face the day. Thank goodness those moments are slim but those moments teach me it's ok to not always be happy. It's ok to not always do for others. That day I needed to take care of me. Something I hardly do. That day my body said "slow down girl" and I had no choice but to listen.