5 But How...

She turns 5. Today. Where did the time go. She snuck into my life. I just had treatments and wasn’t suppose to get pregnant. Then before you know it I am 10 weeks getting an ultrasound and there she was. 

She’s totally different than my other girls. She’s super silly. Crazy smart. Blue and green eyes that change. She shocks me all the time. A total goof ball but can drive me crazy. Too independent yet sensitive. A total prankster. 

She sings a song “my momma is the best momma oh my momma is the best momma”. It makes me laugh. She talks so much with is crazy for a Leo. 

But she came into my life when I needed her and made me smile when I didn’t have it in me. I cuddled with her every night in bed for the first four months of her life and I didn’t care. She always gives you a hundred kisses before leaving. “Wait mom one more kiss” 

All the rules go out of the window with this one and that’s ok. We all need some spunk and love in our life. 

Just Be There...That’s All

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Feel Good Song: Fix You

You Have To Be Happy!

Whatever decision you make in life you have to make sure it makes you Happy. 

 

Celebrating 3 Years August 29th at El Segundo

Oh August...

Who’s Holding You Accountable?

Be grateful for that person who calls you out. Wants you to do and be better. Wants you to be responsible and take care of yourself. That person is the one who will help you be a better person. 

Kids Repeat The Behaviors They Witness

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Feel Good Song: Breathe Me

It’s Part Of Your Path

It was a moment of weakness. Being tired. Hustling. As I said the words I almost took a step back. Every struggle. Every moment of weakness was always for a better version of me. 

Nothing you go through isn’t part of your path. 

Feel Good Song: Alive

Good Morning...Be Happy!

Taco Tuesday....Yay Baby!

Feel Good Song: Forever

Awesome song! 

Take That Risk...

Let Go Of Fear! 💗

Tomorrow Isn’t A Given...

That feel my soul type of hug. Tomorrow isn’t a given. A friend actually said that to me last night and it’s true. A reminder that everyday is unpredictable. We don’t know what tomorrow will be like. So if I love you I will let it be known. You should too. 

Kiss a little (if allowed hahaha) or hug tighter. Know that everyday isn’t a given. Cherish those people who do make your life better or happier. 

Love Without Expectations

Who Is Bringing Out The Best In You?

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Feel Good Song: Ruby

You Can’t Push This...

Life is going to happen whether you have a plan or not. You have to be patient with everything. Live in the moment. 

Rules We Must Remember in Life

This!! ❤️ 

A lesson will be repeated until it’s learned. Over and over again. 

We All Have Flaws...Accept Them

What are your flaws? 

I will share mine...if you share yours. Here it goes. I don’t like chaos. Sometimes it’s hard for me to accept and I immediately want things to go back to normal

and be calm. I don’t like feeling jealous. Ever. I don’t compete and if I feel I have to I walk away from situations. 

I am not perfect but I am me. I like to believe in fairy tales and love and being happy forever. I believe in soulmates and karma. I believe that we are here to teach and learn. I believe our souls want us to be happy. To let go of the chaos around us and live in true peace. To see the beauty in everyday even hard days. Even sad days. 

I don’t like being judged or scolded. I like to be looked as a peer. I don’t like to be under appreciated. We all have value to give and add. I don’t like when people downplay my struggles or challenges. I am not a weak link just because I am sensitive and carefree. I don’t like when people try to intimidate me or bully me because it means I have to put up a tough skin and who wants to do that. I don’t like to have to be tough. I want to be carefree. 

I want a lot of things. None material things. Like sunsets at night. Someone to cuddle with. Kisses on the forehead. I love to paint it relaxes me. I love late at night when everyone is asleep and I am alone in the house and it’s quiet. Where I can here the crickets outside and be in the dark. It relaxes me. 

I am not perfect. I have a lot to still learn and that’s ok. 

Learn from your flaws. Come to terms with them. We all have them. 

Choose Wisely

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Be Patient...

I was easily triggered. I hate when that happens. The beauty is I know when I am mad and why. I feel

it coming on. I don’t downplay it or hold

a grudge I say it... You triggered me. It’s the minute I feel I have to be defensive or I have to stick up for myself. I don’t want to. I want to be accepted or left alone. It’s not in me for anything in the middle. It’s not in me to convince you otherwise. 

Then somehow my friend just made it better and I was ok. Even when I am mad he has a way of making me feel at peace. Not sure why but it helps peace flow in me. Maybe that’s why he has been in my life for a while now. Because there’s something about him that calms me, makes me be at peace that I just can’t seem to turn away. 

Guess some people just have that magic gift.  

Do You Know This Feeling?

It really starts from your hand and goes up your arm into your heart. Like a rush of blood or energy. It’s amazing. I never really felt it until after I had Thyroid Cancer. I would do reiki with my girls. I felt the heat from my hands over them. It’s really amazing. 

I feel it now when I hold certain people’s hands. We block energy from coming in if we are full of anger or stress. Relax. It’s pretty powerful and calming. Hold someone hand up to your heart. You can feel it and it calms you. 

We are powerful humans. We just don’t know how to use it because we get distracted by chaos around us. 

Clear your mind. 

Let it in. 

Enjoy the flow. 

Nice Guys Are The Way To A Happy Heart

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Love this and will always take a nice guy over a bad boy for sure. 

You Can’t Control Anyone...Just Yourself

Feel Good Song: Hot Gates

Soul searching is when you look at your pain and ask yourself who will save you and heal you. No one will

but yourself. The right one can’t come love you if you have the wrong ones standing in the way. Let it go. You deserve it all from the one who wants to give it to you. 

Let Go...When Feelings Aren’t Mutual

When one person doesn’t look at you like you look at them and it hurts you well that’s when you let go and stop the pain. 

Feel Good Song: Tonight...Tonight

I Don’t Compete & You Shouldn’t Either

I don’t compete and if I do it’s with myself. To make myself better. Not to prove myself to anyone. Not to prove my worth or value and you shouldn’t either. And if someone makes you feel like you should well they aren’t the right one for you. Don’t ever let anyone make you feel this way.  I have walked away from a lot of situations where I didn’t want to prove myself to anyone. It makes you love yourself more. 

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Get Out Of Your Comfort Zone

Feel Good Song: Holdin’ Out

Feel Good Song: Unstoppable

Happy Monday!

Build A Happy Life...No Need To Escape

Feel Good Song: Lovely

Step Away From The Phone

She made a good point. “What else am I suppose to be doing”

Um well....so I went out and got her stuff. Stuff we can do together or she can do alone. Stuff that would work different parts of her brain instead of being on her phone. 

I must say it was a brilliant idea on my end! High five to me! Lol 

At first she said I could keep the sudoku. Oh no we are doing this together. She was intimidated. She said she couldn’t figure it out until we did them together and then she was figuring them out on her own. I love sudoku. 

Next were Mad Libs. We both had some great belly laughs this time. She was so happy I bought her these. She did them in her class for 5th grade. I want to go out this week and buy her more. 

I wanted her to use her creativity and brain in a different way. I also wanted to stop seeing her on her phone. It’s hard being a single mom to three because I wish I could split myself up into three. As I am hanging with my oldest my other two are calling me

to hang with them so I am bouncing around room

to room. Which I love but still hard on them to not have my constant individual attention. Then again which kid can?

The sudoku and mad libs were a hit. We bonded and laughed and she went to bed saying she can’t wait to do more tomorrow. We tapped into her inner child mode and mine too. I must say I loved it. She brightened up. She became more alive. 

Will this last? Who knows. If not I will have to attempt something else for her to do as a distraction. All I know is I am trying to have her walk away from

her phone and enjoy a different type of pastime. 

She Just Needed To Be Loved For Exactly Who She Was

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This...

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What Are You Looking For?

Everyone has something to teach us. It’s those that bring our heart peace. Who calm us. You make us miss them. Who enrich us. Who help us grow and look at life differently. Those people deserve our time, attention and affection. 

What Makes Your Heart Happy!

❤️ Silence at Midnight 

Never Assume...Relax...Trust The Process

We tend to over analyze. The what if’s. Sometimes just relaxing and going with the flow actually shows us that nothing is wrong. Just trust the process.  

Money Has Nothing To Do With How Rich You Are

Happiness. Now that’s something to be rich about. The green stuff..that only helps at the surface but not within. 

Now This Is True Love

❤️

 I won’t lie. I have had that feeling and it’s awesome. We all should have that person who makes us do a little happy dance seeing them. 

Who You Choose To Be With...

Is a daily choice! You decide everyday. 

Everything Ends Up Working Out

This is so true. Always always ALWAYS know that you always end up in a better place. No matter where you are today. No matter what pain you feel. Time heals and things always get better. ❤️

Feel Good Song: Down In The Valley

Great song! ❤️

We Are Not 18 Anymore....But That’s Ok

My college roommate came down over the weekend. I love her. She’s so much fun. We have had some awesome girls nights together. So when she said I am coming to visit I knew we were in for a great time. 

One reason I love Norwalk is you don’t have to leave it to have fun. The city is full of great restaurants and bars. Now there’s a couple of really fun Rooftop Bars which makes it even more fun to stay local. 

We have been friends for 21 years. Crazy we have known eachother more of our lifetime than not. I remember going out dancing in college and waking up the next morning feeling fine. She was a nurse major so she would be up at 6:00 for clinicals. 

Now not so much. We can still party but wake up sore from dancing. In bed way too late up too early. I couldn’t move my left side. She climbed in my bed and laughed asking if I had a stroke. Nope heels for 7 hrs will do that to a mom. 

But our run down was awesome and perfect for a girls night with no cover and if you do it smart you can go out for $50 each. 

Barcelona- tapas, sangria, awesome view

Sono Rooftop Sky Bar- just opened. A little pricey on drinks but they asked for our feedback. Stopped serving past 11:00

Evaritos Rooftop-mixed ages music playing loved how big it is 

SOHO Bar- a woman DJ was rocking it last night. Loved it 

Our House- upstairs is so chill and can run downstairs to dance 

Tablou- my favorite place to end the night. Awesome salsa music and fun vibe

You’re never too old to enjoy a fun night out!

It’s Who Are Today That Matters

I learned that the present is the only thing that needs your focus. I learned to not let people bother me anymore. Who has time for that? I also learned to let the past go. Just living every day. Every moment at a time. Embrace it. 

Feel Good Song: Whispers in the Dark

I rather live a life of fairy tale believing real, feel good love exists verse the reality of life of stress,pain and hardship. What do you choose to believe. ❤️

348 Oyster Bar in Fairfield CT

How lucky are we to live in an area surrounded by awesome seafood restaurants. 

We used to come here all the time years ago. We heard 
they had new owners so had to check it out. I must say it was delicious and we can’t wait to go back. I had a hard time picking off the menu because there was so many awesome dishes I wanted to try. 

We ordered clam chowder and their fried seafood platter as an appetizer. Was delicious. The fried fish wasn’t heavy at all. So tasty and fresh. They serve bread with roasted big chunks of garlic in the oil. Amazing!

Then I got the fish stew- my favorite. Comfort food in a bowl. The broth was smooth. Mussels. Clams. Shrimp. Filet. Scallops. I kept dunking the bread in the broth. This is like a big warm hug for me. My mom got their blacken shrimp tacos. Very refreshing. 

We had to get dessert. Nutella puff pastry. Seriously I have been on a Nutella kick this week and this just topped it. The staff were awesome. So nice. We sat in the back patio. Was so pretty. 

They have half price bottles of wine on Mondays. Can’t wait to go back and try the other items on the menu. 

http://www.348oysterbar.com/

Welcome Back...J

(Old fashioned at 348 Oyster Bar with my Mom)

This morning my mom said Hey J, welcome back. 

I didn’t understand what she was talking about. 

What do you mean mom?

You haven’t been yourself for a little while and now I notice you are back to you and I wanted to let you know. I like that. 

When did you notice a change back I asked her. 

A week or two ago she said. 

I don’t know what triggered a change but I do feel more at ease. More at peace. A lot of factors play in me bringing myself back to my core. My roots.  

My true self. 

I think it’s important we connect within with our true self. I think we get caught up in stress and noise. I have decluttered my life and surroundings. Some

home projects have been completed. My vacation helped me relax. I have connected with my true self and anything that doesn’t apply to it I dismiss. I have handled some matters professionally that have been a pain. 

Life is never going to be perfect. It’s a rollercoaster ride. But when you lose your true self along the way it becomes a problem. My core is peace and calmness. Routine. Structure. When it isnt aligned or in chaos I don’t function how I should. 

Be sure to always be in balance with who YOU are. To what YOU need in your life to bring yourself peace and calmness. 

Cheers to your happiness and finding YOU!

Stop Chasing Butterflies...I mean Love

I took them outside. We swam. After a couple of hours they went to play on the playground. My niece kept saying to the sky please come down. Please let me know hold you. 

There was a beautiful butterfly. I love butterflies. They remind me of my battle with thyroid cancer. The thyroid is in a shape of a butterfly. But this time my heart hurt. All of a sudden. She was running all over the yard chasing this beautiful butterfly. She was begging for it to come down to her. She kept asking “why won’t you just let me catch you” It was like chasing love. 

They say if you chase something you will push it away but if you let it be. Sit still. It will come to you. Like a butterfly. Like love. Not forced. Naturally drawn to you. 

Life has to be played this way. To be patient and calm. To not rush results. To not assume being aggressive always works in your favor. To understand that the happiest people are at peace within. That whatever is meant to be part of their life will come to them. 

 

You Will Heal...You Will Move Past This

In every situation pain doesn’t stick around forever. Everyday will get easier and easier. Everything heals. Even the heart. 

Feel Good Song: Cleopatra

That’s All She Wanted...

It’s ok to let your guard down. Even when you have been hurt. It’s ok to risk it...after all doesn’t everyone just want to end up happy and in love. 

Feel Good Song: You Got It

Don’t Fear Change...It Can Be Beautiful!

Food & Love....

Or first ❤️

Soho Bar 1 Year Anniversary August 10th

http://www.sohobarnorwalk.com/

Awaken Your Soul

All wounds build character. No one goes through this journey without some pain. Don’t let it defeat you. Let it build you up. 

Feel Good Song: I Found

Happy Friday!

Been a long week. Hope you all enjoy your weekend as much as I plan to!

Feel Good Song: Only Human