Saturday, January 4, 2020
Let That Person Go!
I will never ever be....
Fill it in. I could share with you all the dumb stuff I tolerated and put up with but why breathe life into it?! There’s a list of things I will never be again.
But really fill in who you’re letting go of within you.
This Time It’s Different
Believe in yourself. Whatever didn’t work out for you wasn’t meant for you. This time it’s going to be different.
You Have The Right To Feel The Way You Feel
It’s validation. Right? The process of someone acknowledging you feel a certain way. Whether they agree with it or not. We all don’t want to feel dismissed. We all want our feelings to be justified. Even if you don’t agree.
We choose how we feel. I have a friend whose friend always comes to her and asks about me. He always says I hope she knows she not going to get that from that person. It blows my mind. He’s very in tune with me. So she came to me the other day and I said this time I know, this time I stopped everything. She just smiled.
I fought for a long time for people to view how I felt. To validate it. Then I stopped. I confronted people head on. Then it changed. They treated me differently.
We all are a bit of a cry out for help. We all need guidance and support. Sometimes though we look for support in the wrong places and from the wrong people. Some people aren’t capable of giving us the type of love and validation we need and deserve. Know the difference. Know the difference between who can help us and who can continue to damage us.
This...This Time It’s Different
The previous years was about survival. Dealing with extreme change. Getting by. But this year...it’s about now finding your true self and embracing it. Finding peace and focusing on only the things and people who bring out your best in you. It’s also self acceptance. Self affirmations. Self love.
I am telling you the power of change can happen over night. It’s accepting and releasing. It’s not repeating patterns that caused pain and self doubt.
Don’t dwell on the past. What’s meant to be in your life will be in your life. What 2020 and today are about is finding what makes you you. What makes your soul happy. Do more of that!
Don’t Change...Enjoy The Little Things
Look. Look outside.
It’s the magic of life to view the little things that lead to big things. Enjoy your magic.
So Much To Say...
Every morning my parents talk. He brings her coffee in bed. She then gets up and they spend an hour together taking before work. I always wondered how the hell they had so much to talk about. But then I met a friend. I swear I always would say to him I have so much to tell you. We would talk all day almost everyday about anything and everything. We even had a ton of disagreements but really it was a good point in our life for us.
So now whenever I wonder why or what could my parents possibly have to say to one another it hits me that they are friends. Best friends. They really enjoy each other. That their marriage is also a friendship and that hit me like wow that’s how a marriage lasts.
That’s how Relationship lasts. Having a friendship. Love and lust fades but I could see how fun it could be to live with your best friend and enjoy life together.
That right there is a prime example to me. To choose someone who you want to run to and have endless chats with. To end up with someone who is not just a lover but also your friend.
Friday, January 3, 2020
I Challenge You To This
Start tonight. Even if it is to a stranger. Smile at them. Not in a weird creepy way in a nice way.
The other day I was out with my daughter and was speaking to a lady who asked me for my advice on an item and said Happy New Year after my daughter asked if I knew her. I said no. She said oh wow. I said it’s ok to be polite and help others if they ask. Just be careful as a child don’t do it alone without a parent around.
We can change anyone’s life at any time. Please focus on changing it for the better. Start today. I plan to as well!
How Long Does It Take...As Long As You Need
This song I remember was playing fall of 2018. Was a rough time for me. Things were all finalizing. Turmoil was in my life. I was working out in my bedroom of my old house I got upset and threw a weight on the ground. It bounced up from the carpet and into the wall leaving a hole. I am not a violent person at all. I was first in shock because that wasn’t my intentions and then I laughed and then I thought crap I have to fix that since I lived alone. But I will never ever forget that day. What I felt. What happened. Everything.
This song played this afternoon while I was at the gym working out. All the emotions rushed back. I then said to myself man I still have a ton of healing to do.
A therapist I once went to said when dramatic situations happen in our life it can take up to three years to get over it and that’s if you deal with it. Imagine. So we have a situation. It sucks we bury it. Then in time it comes up again. We never really heal because we don’t work through it. Things trigger it. Songs remind us of it. People hurting us remind us of past pain.
When I first separated from my ex I spent 7 months alone. Single. It was pretty amazing I must say because it was new. I had to heal and focus on me and my kids. My job. Taking care of a house solo. All those things. So after dating these last year and a half I have decided again to stop. Focus on myself and my kids and my life and work and home situation. I have to heal 100% from everything. The past. Stuff from 2019. Anything buried. All has to stop. All has to come up and be healed.
I want to hear this song one day and not associate it with pain. Once I do I know my work is done.
I share this with you because you too have pain. You too have hurt or a buried situation. I had someone really close to me once say he had no expectations. You can’t get hurt when you don’t have expectations he would say to me. I don’t want to live like that. He shouldn’t either and you shouldn't.
You aren’t alone on this journey of life. I am definitely not alone on this journey of life. So start your journey. Thanks for being a part of mine.
Always Be Clear Of Your Intentions
We send out to the universe what we want. Sometimes out of anger and frustrations we want one thing. Once things calm down we want another. Be clear with the universe exactly what you want and need.
I have had so many situations where I said I wanted one thing but meant another. As if I didn’t know what I wanted or needed or I went along with things or I had doubt. Regardless it gets chaotic and crazy. Stop doing that. Maybe say I want to focus on growth and happiness and peace so please align me with people and situations that can offer me that and bring me that.
Sometimes our lessons are different than our intentions. Sometimes paths don’t aligned. Regardless how many times did you predict things happening. How many times did you say I never wanted that to happen and it happens.
It’s all about aligning with the universe.
Be In The Now
This exact moment. Say screw it and enjoy life’s pleasure. Miss someone- tell them. Have a craving- fulfill it. Life is really short. Enjoy it.
What Stone Are Your Feeling?
Every once in a while I pour out my stones and see which one I need. Today was healing.
I feel great. I am calm and peace of mine. What you do is you pour these in your hand and see which one feels a bit warm to you or your energy is more attracted to. Today was amethyst. Which is healing. Peace of mind. It helps for meditation which is funny because I have been doing all week and sleeping to meditation music to calm the brain.
It’s fun to tap into your energy. We all could use a little guidance and healing.
VIP Lunch What...What
I love working from home. I get to sneak out and pop into school to join my kids in their activities. This time was for a VIP lunch for my middle one getting a lot of points for good behavior. 100 to be exact and then she could invite anyone to her VIP lunch and she chose us. I brought donuts as a special treat. It’s moments like this you have to cherish. They grew up fast and things change but little fun treats like this make the process enjoyable.
It’s Noodle Time
I was disappointed last time I came because I didn’t order the right dish. But this time...this time I did and ate the whole thing...shhh don’t tell anyone.
I texted a friend to remind me which one to get and thank goodness I did because it was so amazing.
The Shoyu Paitan with corn add on is the best one!
The Shoyu Paitan with corn add on is the best one!
My daughter and I were deciding where to eat. I said I can’t decide where to go she said I know you love so many places. It was true I do. I started to laugh because a friend would always say that to me. You’re happy no matter where you go. It’s true. So instead I had to think about where she would enjoy eating and remembered she loved Mecha. Omg lets go to Mecha I said she’s like YES!
She’s like a little adult now it’s so fun.
Her noddle was broth and noodle but she did try my favorite dishes. She even ordered a mango boba and it was pretty darn good. It tastes like a pina colada without liquor.
This is a bubble tea or sweet drink that is combined with Milk. The pearls are made out of tapioca. They get sucked up through the straw so she asked for a smaller one and we couldn’t stop laughing.
It still got stuck on the smaller straw. The pearls tasted like fig and are gummy like candy.
Always a great time out.
When Someone Rocks You Tell Them
Out to lunch and proud mom moment when I ask my daughter if she wants to leave the waitress a message and she sounds just like you do.
Feel Good Song: One Week
What a flashback from the past. I loved this song. My daughter said it’s awful. Haha. Enjoy the day!
Healthy Mind Healthy Body Healthy Life
This is really important. When you love yourself and are at peace with yourself you don’t abuse substances or do anything to sabotage your health to cope. You don’t need to cope. You’re at peace and a happy place in life. When you need a distraction or a coping mechanism you’re covering up inner pain or need a distraction from your reality life.
Please fix your reality. Please look within. I have seen substance abuse. I have seen alcohol abuse. I have seen people turn to other forms to cover inner pain. Having an affair. Food. Drugs. Staying in unhealthy relationships. What they don’t realize is the answers are simple. Stop masking pain and deal with it. Heal and be healthy and then you can be truly happy.
It’s a work in progress. I get it. But you owe it to yourself to give yourself the best possible life. You’re not alone in your journey.
Thursday, January 2, 2020
2020 Goals Summed Up
I think it’s important. No settling. No half effort relationships and friendships. Just make yourself a priority. Love yourself. Be kind and good to others. Embrace life. Love your journey. 2020 Goals.
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