Have a good, pure, heart! ❤️
Friday, January 17, 2020
Let Go Of Jealousy
A friend actually wrote this when we were talking about being jealous of situations. It struck me. It was true. When we are jealous we only hurt ourselves. We aren’t punishing the person or situation or circumstances we are jealous of we are actually hurting ourselves.
You have to have enough faith to know you have what you need and when you don’t you will get it.
I was never raised to be jealous or envious of others. I do at times when there’s a situation with competing I step away. I am not competitive. I don’t like having to prove myself. I feel what you see is what you get and that’s enough for the right person and situation.
If you’re jealous- let go of it. Instead be grateful for what you do have and for all those people who are in your life. Not the situations you don’t have or the people who didn’t decide to stay.
Being Alone Can Be Sort of Amazing...
It’s not saying be a loner and not have anyone in your life. It’s saying being happy alone is good for you. It means when you do find the one you will know and be able to offer them your best version of you. ❤️
Leave it to the Specialists
I was feeling awesome. I go to see my thyroid specialist. She’s like how do you feel. I said amazing. She then asks about meds I said well my primary at my physical said to skip a day since levels are high back in October.
I swear I felt like her child in that moment. She let me have it. “Why would you do that without telling me. You are a cancer patient you aren’t treated like everyone else.”
She was right.
I said well I feel great. She went on to say how shocked she is because even though my levels show no cancer my thyroid is in Hypo mode. Which is too low. She’s shocked I feel great and no wonder why I haven’t had weight loss. My levels are too low and the gym is probably keeping me going.
Ouch. I felt foolish.
I said in humor so this means with new levels I will lose weight?
She wasn’t amused.
So now I have two new doses and an order to see her in 8 weeks.
I walked out a bit defeated. I was like crap this is why you leave it to the specialists. Also a bit worried since I feel amazing what will happen once levels are normal. Will I be even more energized. Also knowing for the rest of my life my levels can be off and I could function just fine.
So take my advice. Please don’t make changes without the doctor in charge and even if you feel great be sure to take care of yourself and see a doctor.
My situation scared me a bit. I did keep pushing my appointment and if I went sooner she could have adjusted meds sooner.
Who ever said not having a thyroid is easy probably still has theirs.
Looking At Life Differently
I love this.
Every person you meet or have in your life serves a purpose for you and you serve a purpose for them. You are impacting their life in a certain way and they are impacting yours.
What’s Your Spirit Animal?
I never really thought about it. I never really see animals in my dreams. I always was drawn to giraffes and koala bears. So I was speaking to a friend who knew his. He suggested I took a test so I did. It actually said I was a Butterfly which is ironic because butterflies symbolizes transformation and it’s the shape of a Thyroid so I always say I had to set my “butterfly” free to live.
I recently posted a picture of change and growth with a caterpillar and butterfly. It’s important to change and grow through your lifetime. Read post here
You Attract What You Think
I kept saying my best time was my alone time. When I just focused on me and my kids and my work and family and friends around me. When I had no pressure to find someone who was aligned with what I wanted and needed.
So a couple years later and I am back at that point. Not saying we don’t want a companion. In due time. I am saying I had to work through some patterns and break cycles to realize maybe just maybe deep down I wanted to be where I once was. In peace. With myself and my current state of life. I just kindof did it myself. I attracted my current state...being alone again just focusing on what I need and my kids and work and family and friends. I appreciate those I met along my journey but when you’re at peace you are calm and you glow differently and sleep differently and appreciate life differently.
Be content with your life too and if you’re not then please make a change. 💜
Happy Friday...What Makes You Happy?
Less is more at times. Remember that...Where you can appreciate the little things in life.
Thursday, January 16, 2020
Bad Moments Don’t Make Bad Days
I totally get this. So I am having a good day and then I remember something. A memory or something reminds me of something. Then pain comes. I get sad. I literary have to say girl stop that...enjoy the day. So what it still hurts or bothers you but look at the positive things in your life. Look how far you have come Look how different your life is today verse yesterday. And then I am better.
Domestic Violence is Never Ok One Artist’s Movement
I saw this article and it stayed with me. Domestic violence is never ever ok. I don’t care if it’s verbal or abusive. In one country an artist mounted 440 pairs of shoes to represent the number of women killed in one
year by their husbands. The thought makes my stomach turn. To know the person you chose to spend the rest of your life with turns around and does this to you.
As a mom of girls it’s our job to be role models. To show our girls what’s acceptable and not acceptable behavior from a companion and spouse. Never will I degrade myself again to have them think love looks a certain way. Love isn’t anger or jealously or being aggressive. Love is a partnership. Communication. Love. It’s 50-50 work. It’s being eachother best friend and better half.
I have even seen it with women being aggressive to men too. It’s never ok. Under no circumstances should anyone have aggressive behavior towards you. No child should witness their parent being a victim to abuse. It causes patterns. Patterns of being like that parent or getting into relationships like their parents. It’s a vicious cycle.
I hope this artist’s voice gets heard. I hope men learn to treat women equally. I hope no one witnesses abuse. It’s the most awful experience to go through. The fear. The rage. Here in America it’s not tolerated but around the world women are still being victimized to it. Just awful and sad.
Read the full article here
There’s A Haunting Memorial Honoring 440 Women Killed By Their Husbands Last Year In Turkey
Today’s Affirmation Love Yourself Just The Way You Are
Of course we can improve. Who can’t? But love yourself during that process. Anything change is just an improvement. 💗
Feel Good Song: The Hype
I keep hearing this band in the car and at the gym Been a while since I heard them. Now it seems like I hear them almost once a day.
Look Mom...a Coin
I see them all the time. It’s like that phrase “pennies from heaven” but mine are dimes. I see them constantly. Reminders you always have people with you. ❤️
Wednesday, January 15, 2020
Say Sorry
When you’re wrong. When you hurt someone. Say sorry.
You can ever be too proud to admit your mistakes. Say sorry my bad didn’t mean to do that.
I hear it all the time. I apologize too. Why? Because why not?
I always respect someone for their honesty. For admitting mistakes verse being a tough skin person. We are always learning. We are always trying to improve. Say sorry. When you’re wrong. When you know someone is hurting because of your words and actions. When you make a mistake.
No one is perfect. There’s not harm on apologizing. Try it. I have. You should too.
Accept Change
Don’t stay comfortable. Don’t stay because you’re afraid of change. Don’t stay in a situation because you’re used to it. If you don’t wake up everyday and say wow my life is amazing. Then change.
I was a stay at home mom. If you look at my posts form years ago I was this homemaker. Arts and Crafts. I am not who I was. I still love that stuff but I went through a dark period. We all have. At one point or another. I now am living my best life and hope every year I change to be better. To say nah this year is better than last and so on.
You can’t stay the same. You have to constantly work on changing yourself and bettering your situation and life. You can’t get lazy and comfortable. You can’t settle.
Welcome change. Embrace it. Be a new version of you every time you choose.
Choose Yourself
I have actually loved my alone time. My time. You need to learn to love yours and if you don’t have it make time for it.
When you’re comfortable in your skin and happy with your own company people flock to you. Ironic. I know.
Accept and Release
Accept what is and then process everything. This is important. It’s important for healing.
A lot of times we don’t want to deal with the hurt so we bury it. We bury years and years of stuff. I get it. You get it. But we have to stop.
This year is about growth. About healing and feeling the emotions. Even if you get mad at yourself for your own role. Stop burying it.
Everything In Moderation
*averagejogger
It’s about moderation. Over and over I hear it’s about balancing nutritions with exercise good sleep and mental healing.
Try it. 💗
Today’s Affirmation Release Hurt & Resentment
During the journey of self reflection, healing and growth you look within more so then at others. You look to change yourself because really you can’t change people. You can change how you handle them. Today’s affirmation is big. It’s deep. It’s the biggest scare. Love scares us. Love is scary.
Opening up emotionally and letting someone in is really really hard and we don’t just let anyone in. If you let someone in it’s because you connected with them on a level of being vulnerable. Love makes us weak because we put trust in people to love us back. When that doesn’t happen we get hurt badly. We lack trust in others. We hold on to resentment. It messes with our self confidence. We only get hurt by people we love and we want to love us.
So today we have to say we release all hurt and resentment which is ironic because I saw my sister and then she texted me it’s ok to open your heart chakra again. That’s for love, ability to love others. She knows I stopped dating and only let a couple of people in my life from a distance. I said I wasn’t ready then I read this affirmation. She texted:
“Keep your heart chakra open don’t let anything block that energy and you will find the love of your life.”
We all have been hurt. I swear the last couple years have really made me reevaluate people I chose to love.
Today let’s focus on releases that hurt and resentment. I can’t promise I can do it over night. It’s a process. But we should try.
Break the Patterns
We all have them. We are predictable. I have a friend. I know his pattern so well that it doesn’t disappoint me anymore. It’s predictable.
He makes tentative plans. I know when he will follow through and not. I don’t expect more because I get it now.
I have a friend in my life when she drinks too much her voice changes. It’s my cue to be reserved around her. Because if I don’t we have an argument. Next day she apologizes but the pain is already done.
I know people who block people out instead of discussing things. They don’t want to show emotion because they think it makes them weak but it doesn’t. It shows your human.
I know a guy in my life that if I try to correct his behavior style instead of processing he reacts by criticizing mine. But later he does change and takes my advice without saying so to me. I know his patterns. He’s predictable.
I had another guy in my life he enjoyed pushing buttons. He enjoyed getting a reaction. He would cause an argument and then hours later say I was just joking but see how you reacted. He gets bored and likes arguments because he was raised around it. It’s all he knows. It actually gave him a thrill.
When you know patterns you don’t let things bother you but you do have to break them. If they don’t do you justice you have to change. If you see pattern after pattern cause more pain then good then you need to change.
Look at your patterns. How you react to things. How you handle things. How you handle arguments. How those close to you handle arguments. How you love. How you feel what represents love to you.
I know my patterns. I can be mean if triggered. I then need space and a break. I need to process everything. It’s like a built up of emotions and words come
out of me. I usually am very vocal with how I feel but sometimes repeated behaviors give me doubt and I don’t like it. I then have to ask myself why I was triggered. What really bothered me. Break it all down. Because I could never really hate anyone I later feel guilty for how I reacted. I then try to make peace. I don’t have ill feelings in my heart for anyone but at the time of me being triggered I am really tough. I can be mean and it’s not ok but that’s my pattern. I know my pattern. I seen it. I am working on it. I own it.
Question is do you know yours? Do you own yours?
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